Being an insecure guy, the conclusion that I keep reaching is that she doesn't like me, or that she isn't interested in me. Recognizing that my insecurity may be hindering my grasp on reality.
I've never really been waay too "in" to girls. I'm not gay or anything, but it takes a lot for me to be attracted to a girl. I don't want to be a hypocrite. I'm alright looking and to be honest, I like girls who are physically attractive.
I hope that doesn't sound superficial.
Summed up, I'm not your typical asshole guy. Yeah, I like girls for how they look, but I like a girl who has personality, above all else.
Pretty much, I know this one girl. I just misjudge myself a lot. If there was an awkward silence in our conversation, or I wasn't as entertaining as usual, or she didn't seem too interested in what I had to say, or she decided to go and talk to somebody else instead, I'll start beating myself up.
I'll think I did something wrong, or that there's something internally wrong with me.
Which is complete stupid, I know. Also rather silly that I'd expect her to talk only to me, even if she liked me the same way that I liked her.
Anyway, I rarely talk to her, or text her... But when I do, sometimes she'll respond within a few minutes, sometimes it'll take her a few hours.
Normally, I don't care too much, because I know she's busy. Lately, she hasn't responded to my last three or for text messages. It's been two days since the last one and I'm getting kind of anxious.
It is slightly dramatized and so I'm not really sure what to think.
"you're not mine to lose, but still I feel like I'm losing you"
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